Fertility Treatments

I can't help but worrying about what is in store for me. For us. As mentioned before I made a phone call. Made an appointment with a fertility specialist. I have tried everything from my regular obgyn 3 of them in fact. Then tried to tackle it naturally with tons of vitamins and supplements. I have tried changing my diet. Nothing has worked. In the journey I did find out that my testosterone levels are super high. Which totally makes sense. It is one of the symptoms of PCOS. In the past 12 months I have had a period a total of 4 times. Of course that doesn't help.

So now I am hoping to find some help at the fertility center. I am guessing that the first step would be artificial insemination or IUI. I am so thanful for insurance since it does cover half of the costs. But looking at numbers the price is still more than we can afford. So hopefully my faith will be strong enough.

So my question is: Has anyone done IUI or know anyone that has? What are your experiences?

I have heard a lot about IVF but not a lot about IUI so I am just curious.

Thanks!

Empty

Next month is an appointment. One that I wish wasn’t so far away. Yet it is. I received that paperwork for such appointment via email. Pretty sure that 19 pages of paperwork will drain my ink cartridge and take forever to fill out.

I wish I was told how hard it would be to “BE” while trying to get pregnant.

Life goes by way too fast…

As I dropped my little mister off for speech therapy this morning I couldn’t help but to get a little teary eyed. As I watched him walk up to the door all by himself big as can be made me just a little sad. Then he turned to look at me and said, “Bye Mom. Love you!”. Then the tears came.

I can’t believe that my little baby is going to Primary next year. It really didn’t hit me until Saturday night at our ward party when someone informed me that he would be going. I was in shock. I just never realized how fast this year has gone by.

I have been putting off trying to find a preschool for him. I wasn’t sure why but then I realized that I am just not that happy to send him away for a few hours each week. What in the world am I going to do? I never thought that I would have so much time on my hands especially at this time in my life. I expected to have 2 little ones possibly with another babe on the way. Isn’t it crazy how things don’t go as planned? I just have to keep thinking that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me. It definetly isn’t my plan but he knows what is best. So through this Christmas season I am and will continue to have Christ in my thoughts and be grateful for what I have. It sure is hard most of the time but it is the only thing that keeps me going. That and my little rascal.

On another note we are trying to find friends. Yes all of us. David and I would love to have group dates. We just think they are fun. So if anyone would like to make new friends and maybe do something once a month or just once please let me know. We are going to be proactive this coming new year and do some fun things.

Tegan also is looking for friends. Poor kid doesn’t have siblings to keep him busy and he sure is bored of me most of the time. So if you would like to do a regular play date let me know. I want to plan things so that he has stuff to look forward to.

Merry Christmas ya’ll!

Jonah Mowry: 'Whats Goin on..'

EVERYONE needs to watch this. I am bawling! I too was bullied. I am still bullied as an adult. It needs to stop! Hopefully everyone's hearts will soften even just a little by watching this.

What to do…

It is crazy to think that this is will be our 2nd Christmas without a baby. That’s right it has almost been 2 years. It kills me to know that in that 2 years many women are getting pregnant with their 2nd child in just the amount that we have been trying for one. Yep kills me.

After many rounds of clomid, months and months of progesterone, doctor after doctor, supplements and vitamins, too many doctor apppointments to count and a hole in our pockets I am just ready to give up. Ready to get on with my life. I would like to feel happy with just one child but I just feel like our family is not complete. There is a just a void that needs to be filled. I am not sure how it will be filled but somehow it does. We are trying to decide what is next. We are praying for an answer. We are praying for comfort.

So please keep us in your prayers through this holiday season. This is the hardest time of year for me.

I am now going to go cuddle my little buddy and sing him to sleep. I am so grateful to be a mother to one special little boy yet I am longing for more.

Hi my name is…

Naomi and I am addicted to Vampire Diaries. Yep that’s right. Took me awhile to get on the bandwagon since we don’t have cable. But after they put it on Netflix I knew I had to watch it.

The problem is there are only 44 episodes….

I am at episode 34….

I watched that many in a matter of days….

I am tired….

I need sleep!

Me being a Twilightfanatic now says….Move over Edward…Team Stefan!

Super Power

If I could choose one of the many super powers that people dream of what would I choose? I would choose for the ability to stop time. So I can have the opportunity to catch up. I really don’t like being left behind.

Just a little sad today.

It just keeps getting closer and closer to the 2 year mark.

And I don’t like it one bit.

Tomorrow will be better.

School Bus

Tegan asked me like he does pretty much every day: “Mommy I wanna go to Nana’s house!”

Me: “Not right now bud.”

Tegan: “Yes today MOM!”

Me: “Not right now. You are going over later.”

Tegan: “I will ride the school bus.”

Me: “Sorry bud but a school bus doesn’t go over there from her.”

Teg: “YES! School bus take me.”

 

Things that Tegan loves: The Magic School Bus and Nana.

Women

Lately I have been so shocked as to what women pin on Pinterest. Don’t get my wrong I love the site. But it has showed me how unhappy women are. They are always trying to change themselves. They are never happy about their current state.

Take this for example:

The title of this picture was “This or That?”

Is there something wrong with one or the other?

Honestly!

I find something very wrong with this.

Who is to say what is beautiful?

The media?

How about our Heavenly Father who created our bodies.

I totally believe that everyone should be healthy but in no way is this:

Healthy.

I am proud to say that I am a “Plus Size” girl.

I am proud of that fact.

I was born with the genes that will not allow me to look like this:

And never would I want to.

I am grateful for my body.

This body of mine allowed me to birth a child. Now that is a super power.

Yes at times it lets me down but that is a fact of life. In no way is skinny going to make you “feel better”. Nothing can make you feel better but yourself. Nothing!

When you find that you love yourself. Everything about yourself you will find that you don’t care if you are size 1 or a size 18.

I am a size 18 and I am proud to say…

I am proud of ME!

I couldn’t come up with a good Blog Title…so this is it.

Wow! Has it really been that long since I last blogged? Not like anyone cares. I am starting to think that I am just writing to myself. Oh well.

The past month or so we have been quite busy. We have been in our new apartment for just over a month. And we are loving it! I have been to our ward a total of 2 times. Opps! Our ward is mostly made up of people who are quite older than us. And their children who are Tegan’s age are their youngest. So it is a little weird. Definetly something that we will have to get used to. I have definetly had to get used to going to a new ward by myself. I really don’t like that David works Sundays. I really miss having my companion by my side. We have yet to even meet our bishop or bishopric. Weird? Yea I think so too. I was told that the Relief Society Presidency would come by to visit. That hasn’t happened either. Weird?Maybe.

This past month has been full of back pain. Resulting in being bedridden for one whole week. Not cool! Along with another late period. And another. Yep.

Tegan has been going to speech therapy at the new school. Love it! Tegan is finally talking in sentences. Sentences people! Never thought I ‘d see the day. Well I did but…oh ya know. I can actually have somewhat of a conversation with him and it is wonderful! My days at home aren’t that boring anymore. He says the funniest things and I/we laugh all day long. He tells me that I am constantly in “Twouble” for things like talking too much or tickling him. He thinks that everyone is his friends including the teenage kids up and down our street. He loves everyone and tries to give every baby kisses. I am afraid that some moms may think I or him are crazy since he likes to touch or kiss their child. But it sure is heart melting.

David’s parent received their mission call and are going to Chicago. Illinois. We are so excited for them! We hope to be able to go visit them next year (since it is only a 12 month mission). That is if we can find some good deals on plane tickets, hotels, etc. We shall see.

We are headed to Disneyland in the month of December with my family and we are all so excited! Teg is so excited to meet Mickey Mouse. And we are excited for a our first official family vacation.

Oh and can’t forget that we are loving having Uncle Chantz home. He continue’s to corrupt my child by telling him to do things that are forbidden and teaching him countless things that a uncle should do.

We are hopping to get some family pics done with my side this weekend so I might actually have some pictures to post. Since that is the only thing people look at anyways. Right?