Blame

There comes a time in a child's life when he/she starts blaming things on others. Usually their sibling. They do it for things like when they make a mess, snuck some candy, turned on the tv, etc. All without asking. All because he/she knows they will get in trouble. Well you see Teg doesn' have a sibling to blame his faults on. So who do think he blames it on? That would David or myself. All depends on who he is talking to. It is quite hilarious actually. Just makes me realize how much he is missing out on without having a sibling. I sure hope he doesn't turn into a spoiled brat. I can already see it starting and I have tried everything I know.

We are hoping that this year will bring a baby into our lives. And not when Tegan acts like one.

Merry Christmas!

{Sorry ya’ll, Christmas cards just didn’t happen this year. Maybe next. Sorry to those your will not be receiving ours this year. I don’t even have time to make this all cutesy. }

We are so grateful for those you have thought of us this holiday season. We surely are blessed!

We hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas!

From The Patterson Family to yours

Fertility Treatments

I can't help but worrying about what is in store for me. For us. As mentioned before I made a phone call. Made an appointment with a fertility specialist. I have tried everything from my regular obgyn 3 of them in fact. Then tried to tackle it naturally with tons of vitamins and supplements. I have tried changing my diet. Nothing has worked. In the journey I did find out that my testosterone levels are super high. Which totally makes sense. It is one of the symptoms of PCOS. In the past 12 months I have had a period a total of 4 times. Of course that doesn't help.

So now I am hoping to find some help at the fertility center. I am guessing that the first step would be artificial insemination or IUI. I am so thanful for insurance since it does cover half of the costs. But looking at numbers the price is still more than we can afford. So hopefully my faith will be strong enough.

So my question is: Has anyone done IUI or know anyone that has? What are your experiences?

I have heard a lot about IVF but not a lot about IUI so I am just curious.

Thanks!

Empty

Next month is an appointment. One that I wish wasn’t so far away. Yet it is. I received that paperwork for such appointment via email. Pretty sure that 19 pages of paperwork will drain my ink cartridge and take forever to fill out.

I wish I was told how hard it would be to “BE” while trying to get pregnant.

Life goes by way too fast…

As I dropped my little mister off for speech therapy this morning I couldn’t help but to get a little teary eyed. As I watched him walk up to the door all by himself big as can be made me just a little sad. Then he turned to look at me and said, “Bye Mom. Love you!”. Then the tears came.

I can’t believe that my little baby is going to Primary next year. It really didn’t hit me until Saturday night at our ward party when someone informed me that he would be going. I was in shock. I just never realized how fast this year has gone by.

I have been putting off trying to find a preschool for him. I wasn’t sure why but then I realized that I am just not that happy to send him away for a few hours each week. What in the world am I going to do? I never thought that I would have so much time on my hands especially at this time in my life. I expected to have 2 little ones possibly with another babe on the way. Isn’t it crazy how things don’t go as planned? I just have to keep thinking that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me. It definetly isn’t my plan but he knows what is best. So through this Christmas season I am and will continue to have Christ in my thoughts and be grateful for what I have. It sure is hard most of the time but it is the only thing that keeps me going. That and my little rascal.

On another note we are trying to find friends. Yes all of us. David and I would love to have group dates. We just think they are fun. So if anyone would like to make new friends and maybe do something once a month or just once please let me know. We are going to be proactive this coming new year and do some fun things.

Tegan also is looking for friends. Poor kid doesn’t have siblings to keep him busy and he sure is bored of me most of the time. So if you would like to do a regular play date let me know. I want to plan things so that he has stuff to look forward to.

Merry Christmas ya’ll!

Jonah Mowry: 'Whats Goin on..'

EVERYONE needs to watch this. I am bawling! I too was bullied. I am still bullied as an adult. It needs to stop! Hopefully everyone's hearts will soften even just a little by watching this.

What to do…

It is crazy to think that this is will be our 2nd Christmas without a baby. That’s right it has almost been 2 years. It kills me to know that in that 2 years many women are getting pregnant with their 2nd child in just the amount that we have been trying for one. Yep kills me.

After many rounds of clomid, months and months of progesterone, doctor after doctor, supplements and vitamins, too many doctor apppointments to count and a hole in our pockets I am just ready to give up. Ready to get on with my life. I would like to feel happy with just one child but I just feel like our family is not complete. There is a just a void that needs to be filled. I am not sure how it will be filled but somehow it does. We are trying to decide what is next. We are praying for an answer. We are praying for comfort.

So please keep us in your prayers through this holiday season. This is the hardest time of year for me.

I am now going to go cuddle my little buddy and sing him to sleep. I am so grateful to be a mother to one special little boy yet I am longing for more.