Bad Day

Someone is grumpy.

Someone is depressed.

Someone is sick.

Someone one is tired.

Someone is sad.

And that Someone is ME.

Stay clear or I might just start crying.

It's just one of those days when I can not get my mind to stop thinking.

Thinking these days just get me into trouble and makes me sad.

I prefer to not think.

What Made Me Happy Today?

Not only did Tegan have no accidents today he also went poop in the potty TWICE! I love the little (or big) victories that I get to experience as a mom of the cutest lil' mister ever!

Now hopefully it sticks!

Another thing that made me happy today...

I was able to go to the doc to get lots of meds for Bronchitis. Yes I have it again. Or maybe it never went away. I think I am going to have to get a bronchitis shot now. They do have those right? I never want to get this again.

No Good Rotten Day...Or Couple of Months

Have I mentioned that I hate the winter? Well I do. My seasonal depression starts to set in and it is just terrible. If you have never had it or really any depression you are lucky. It consumes your life. Yes you can take medication but after years of taking it you start to feel like you are in a tunnel with no way out. At least that is how I feel. I don't know why this winter has been so hard for me. Well I do know I just wish I could control those reasons. I have been sick off and on for a couple months now. I am going to the doc and insisting that they make me better. Might as well do the same for Teg as well. I wonder if they will let me pay one co-pay for the 2 of us.

Hmmmmm......

Could also be that I have no control if I get pregnant or not. This month has been terrible for me. This month I could be having a baby. Just like all of my other friends. Each time I hear about another friend getting pregnant it sends me more into that dark place. This month marks an anniversary, not a happy one. This month marks a one year anniversary for how long we have been trying for a baby. I wish I could be one of those women who think about having a baby and get prego. For me it just isn't that easy. It takes a lot of planning. A lot of organization. Which I am terrible at it. You would think I would be a pro by now. I have to remember that Day 5 I have to start taking my Clomid. Day 14 for every other day we have to be lovey-dovey. But who wants to be lovey-dovey after all that planning. Blah! And how am I supposed to feel lovey-dovey after feeling like crap due to the seasonal depression and being so sick. It is an endless cycle. One that I do not care one bit about.

I have heard from many people: "You don't want to take Clomid, you can have multiples" Really I had no clue! Yes of course I did. Do you really think I care? Of course it comes from those women who even think about having a baby and they are pregnant.

So to take care of these winter blues I will be going tanning tomorrow. That always seems to help, even if just for a little while.

Potty Training Day....?

I decided to not post the rest of the days. Why? Because they were terrible. He took like 5 steps back and had tons of accidents. Plus I was so tired at the end of the day that I had no desire to post. Well now it is going much better.

I think it all started on Sunday during nursery. I went in after Sunday School to take Tegan potty. The teacher (who was totally new to Tegan) said that he had gone awhile ago all by himself. What? He has never done that much less in a new place. I then asked him if he needed to go and he went right in and really did do it all by himself. I couldn't have been more proud. The past couple of days have been great! Except on Monday for some odd reason instead of going in the potty he decided to pick up a towel from the pile that I was folding and decided to pee in that. Huh? I told him to stop and hurry to the bathroom. Which he did but stopped and finished. It really was hilarious cause I have no clue where he came up with that.

I haven't had to remind him to go potty for 2 days now and it has been great! Except he still can't get #2 down. It is getting really frustrating. But I do have to remember that he has already taken some big steps and is doing so good. Anyone have some tips? I don't think there really is anything. But it's worth a try.

I am so glad that I didn't have to work for about a week so we could get ahead on this. I am really starting to not like work. It's not that I don't like my job (which I really don't but the people make it a little more bearable) I am just tired of having to work. I don't know how you working mom's do it. It is so tiring to make sure I have a sitter for Tegan. Plus I don't have a life anymore. I rarely get to see my husband. It is quite sad. Hopefully soon I will have a reason to quit. We either need to pay off David's car fast or get prego. After a year of trying I think it is time body to take the lunge and join everyone else. Maybe peer pressure will work. Everyone else is doing it why not me? Oh yea cause my body sucks!

***Christmas Pics are coming soon***