Bad Day

Someone is grumpy.

Someone is depressed.

Someone is sick.

Someone one is tired.

Someone is sad.

And that Someone is ME.

Stay clear or I might just start crying.

It's just one of those days when I can not get my mind to stop thinking.

Thinking these days just get me into trouble and makes me sad.

I prefer to not think.

What Made Me Happy Today?

Not only did Tegan have no accidents today he also went poop in the potty TWICE! I love the little (or big) victories that I get to experience as a mom of the cutest lil' mister ever!

Now hopefully it sticks!

Another thing that made me happy today...

I was able to go to the doc to get lots of meds for Bronchitis. Yes I have it again. Or maybe it never went away. I think I am going to have to get a bronchitis shot now. They do have those right? I never want to get this again.

No Good Rotten Day...Or Couple of Months

Have I mentioned that I hate the winter? Well I do. My seasonal depression starts to set in and it is just terrible. If you have never had it or really any depression you are lucky. It consumes your life. Yes you can take medication but after years of taking it you start to feel like you are in a tunnel with no way out. At least that is how I feel. I don't know why this winter has been so hard for me. Well I do know I just wish I could control those reasons. I have been sick off and on for a couple months now. I am going to the doc and insisting that they make me better. Might as well do the same for Teg as well. I wonder if they will let me pay one co-pay for the 2 of us.

Hmmmmm......

Could also be that I have no control if I get pregnant or not. This month has been terrible for me. This month I could be having a baby. Just like all of my other friends. Each time I hear about another friend getting pregnant it sends me more into that dark place. This month marks an anniversary, not a happy one. This month marks a one year anniversary for how long we have been trying for a baby. I wish I could be one of those women who think about having a baby and get prego. For me it just isn't that easy. It takes a lot of planning. A lot of organization. Which I am terrible at it. You would think I would be a pro by now. I have to remember that Day 5 I have to start taking my Clomid. Day 14 for every other day we have to be lovey-dovey. But who wants to be lovey-dovey after all that planning. Blah! And how am I supposed to feel lovey-dovey after feeling like crap due to the seasonal depression and being so sick. It is an endless cycle. One that I do not care one bit about.

I have heard from many people: "You don't want to take Clomid, you can have multiples" Really I had no clue! Yes of course I did. Do you really think I care? Of course it comes from those women who even think about having a baby and they are pregnant.

So to take care of these winter blues I will be going tanning tomorrow. That always seems to help, even if just for a little while.

Potty Training Day....?

I decided to not post the rest of the days. Why? Because they were terrible. He took like 5 steps back and had tons of accidents. Plus I was so tired at the end of the day that I had no desire to post. Well now it is going much better.

I think it all started on Sunday during nursery. I went in after Sunday School to take Tegan potty. The teacher (who was totally new to Tegan) said that he had gone awhile ago all by himself. What? He has never done that much less in a new place. I then asked him if he needed to go and he went right in and really did do it all by himself. I couldn't have been more proud. The past couple of days have been great! Except on Monday for some odd reason instead of going in the potty he decided to pick up a towel from the pile that I was folding and decided to pee in that. Huh? I told him to stop and hurry to the bathroom. Which he did but stopped and finished. It really was hilarious cause I have no clue where he came up with that.

I haven't had to remind him to go potty for 2 days now and it has been great! Except he still can't get #2 down. It is getting really frustrating. But I do have to remember that he has already taken some big steps and is doing so good. Anyone have some tips? I don't think there really is anything. But it's worth a try.

I am so glad that I didn't have to work for about a week so we could get ahead on this. I am really starting to not like work. It's not that I don't like my job (which I really don't but the people make it a little more bearable) I am just tired of having to work. I don't know how you working mom's do it. It is so tiring to make sure I have a sitter for Tegan. Plus I don't have a life anymore. I rarely get to see my husband. It is quite sad. Hopefully soon I will have a reason to quit. We either need to pay off David's car fast or get prego. After a year of trying I think it is time body to take the lunge and join everyone else. Maybe peer pressure will work. Everyone else is doing it why not me? Oh yea cause my body sucks!

***Christmas Pics are coming soon***

Happy New Year!

I will have to admit this year has been a tough one. But really though what year isn't? Here are just a recap of what has happened this year:

• Mister Tegan turned 2 years old in February.
• Earlier this year David's grandma passed away. It was a bittersweet moment. I am so happy that she is no longer suffering and in a beautiful place.
• During the same weekend I celebrated my 23rd birthday.
• We had endless car problems.
• We were blessed in many ways. It is amazing what paying your tithing can do. Somehow we were able to have a little extra money each month.
• We went to Yellowstone for David's family reunion.
• I started working.
• David turned 26 years old.
• We spent and continue to spend many days apart due to our 3 jobs.
• Tegan has thrived and finally started talking a lot more. Not where he should be yet but we are working on that.
• I got released from Primary after 2 years.
• We celebrated Thanksgiving with my family instead of David's family cause we both had to work.
• Tegan and I both took trips to the ER.
• I had many OBGYN appointments.
• We spent a lot of money on infertility drugs and ovulation tests.
• I had some hard months due to my crazy hormones. (I found comfort in knowing that my family and friends were there for me during these hard times)
• David rolled his ankle playing softball during the summer and to this day still has pain.
• David was recognized many times at work and got many gift cards for them. He saved them all and we were finally able to get a Wii balance board and a nunchuk. (we can play together now!)
• Lots of colds and flu's.
• We spent Christmas with my family for Christmas. We got to talk to Elder Whipple for hours. Tegan loved talking to his uncle.
• We ended this year with potty training Tegan.

So this year hasn't been all that bad but we sure have had some trying times. We look forward to a new year and all that it has in store for us. Maybe a baby? Maybe a new place? We can only hope.

I am keeping my resolutions pretty simple this year. Especially since I don't think I did any of mine last year.

• I would like to make more friends. Maybe we can even become friends with a couple. Since we really don't have any couple friends.
• I would like to try to be more organized.
• I would like to get our laptop fixed so I can start digitally scrapbooking.
• Be better at making our bed and Tegan's (I am terrible).
• Go to the temple more.
• Save money to go on a trip when Elder Whipple comes home.
• Save money in general.
• Pay off David's car.
• Exercise more often.

Let's make it a great year in 2011!

Potty Training Day 2

***Sorry might be a little TMI. I have always loved hearing people's stories on how they dealt with potty training and not many people talk about it. So I decided that I would. If you don't want to read about the Potty Training adventure just skip these posts***

Day 2 went surprisingly well. This kid is getting so good at going to the potty. I would remind him every so often that if he needed to use the bathroom to let me know. He would either go by himself or tell me "I gotta go potty!" and then we would rush to the bathroom. This afternoon I could tell that he needed to make a BM but he did not want to go. He would even tell me he had to go but would go to the bathroom and nothing. Well not long afterwards I look over at him and he is just standing in the living room in the middle of the floor just looking down. I asked him if he went poop and he says "I pooped!" Oh dear. I am surprised how calm I was through the whole ordeal. He was pretty grossed out at the mess so I am hoping that he won't do it again.

That is the only one accident that he had today and I am totally ok with it. I am so glad I waited to potty train him. This time around it is going smoothly. I think that if I would have started earlier we would still be having a rough time. I see that in the near future he will be doing great with very few accidents.

Potty Training Day 1

Potty training has gone surprisingly well today. My cousin sent me an e-book that she used for her kids that she got from a friend. I am doing everything that it says to do except to not let him wear diapers or pull-ups at night. This kid drinks a ton and does so through the night cause it is so dry here. She says that if you do not give them drinks 2-3 hours before bedtime but right now that just isn't reasonable. And I am totally ok with that.

I have found that he doesn't like when I tell him to go to the bathroom. He likes to go on his own. And he sure does. Setting the timer also doesn't work. I just remind him that if he needs to use the bathroom to let me know. This is exactly what the e-book says to do and it has worked!

Tegan has had one big accident and 2 little accidents. He even had a BM by himself. I am so proud of him! Hopefully we can all keep it up. And hopefully I won't lose my patience. I have done very well today as well. LOL

If anyone would like a copy of the e-book feel free to leave a comment with your email and I will forward it on to you.

After Christmas Shopping

Tegan and I got up early this morning to find a few After Christmas sale items. There wasn't a whole lot. We did make it to Old Navy to get some $15 jeans. I don't know how people can pay more than that on a pair of jeans. I am cheap and I like it!

I was on the hunt to find a special cookie plate for Santa and some 5x7 frames for pics with Santa. I came with neither. I don't know why it is so hard. I remember last year I was on the hunt for the same things and came home empty. Then I also remembered that I was going to make some frames. Maybe I will have to start working on them so they are ready for next year....cause it may take me awhile. Any ideas on where to find a plate? Maybe I will have to head to Quilted Bear tomorrow.

The next couple of days we will be spending our time cleaning and organizing. Especially Teg's room. This kid has so many toys and no where to put them. I think I finally have some motivation to finish his dresser. Now I just need to get it hauled to my parents basement so I can work on it. If I can get that done I will have a ton of room in his closet since that is where we have his clothes.

Then at the end of the week, I am thinking Thursday we will start the process....the Potty Training Process. I hope with me not working for 4 days will give us enough time.

With my luck probably not.

I am still looking for lots of ideas and suggestions. Thanks for those who have given me some already!

I just feel so unprepared for this journey, can you ever be ready?

I guess Ready or Not here we go!

Potty Training

I guess the time has come. I have been telling myself...and Tegan that we would crack down on potty training after Christmas. I am dreading it and I am excited all at the same time. Our previous attempts have been horrific so I am hoping that this time is much more easier.

So now it is time for me to ask for any tips. Please give them to me. Any and all would be much appreciated. I am totally new to this and after reading many books and many websites I am still lost. Please help me out so we can make this a easy transition.

Body...Stop Failing Me...Please!

Ever had the worst pain in your life...in your back?

To the point that you can barely move.

That is how I feel right now.

It is all due to 'trying' to move a snow blower through the over foot of snow that we woke up to yesterday.

I am not happy about it.

I am in pain and can't even try to enjoy the snow by building a snowman or snow angels with my little sidekick Tegan. Poor kid is looking at the window saying...."Please!".

Oh I feel so bad but I can't sleep, I can't sit, I can't stand, I can't walk.

Did I mention I also get to work tonight in the cold/rain/snow.

Doesn't it just sound wonderful?

Hopefully these hard drugs will work cause I really need to be functioning fully by tonight.

Body don't fail me know!