It’s My Birthday?

I guess today is my birthday. I honestly kept forgetting that today was the day that I turned the big 2-4. Maybe cause I still have my calendar showing the month of March. I am really behind. I of course have nothing planned. I started taking progesterone again so that I could finally have another period. And so I can have a HSG done....I know so exciting. So of course I just had to start my period a few days before my birthday. I always have cramps. Really bad ones in fact. But I swear since I don't always have them (December was the last one) when I do have one it is TERRIBLE! Nothing will touch it. Luckily I have some pain killers from when I was in the hospital with a terrible stomach virus last year. Thank goodness. So today instead of enjoying some warm sunshine, going to lunch with my dearest, and eating lots of goodies I am using a lot of these…

While looking out the window at this…

And feeling like this….literally….

Now I am just hoping that our overnight stay in Park City this week isn’t affected by all of this….I really don’t want to reschedule.

A pet?

I have wanted a pet for awhile.

Our friends fish had babies.

Am I crazy to want a couple?

I think maybe.

So I am now searching for an aquarium.

A used one.

A small one.

If only the guy with the KSL ad would reply to me.

Is it a sign?

It could be my Birthday present.

Sounds good to me.

P.S.

Avon...

Going ok...

If only my mom would order every campaign

Then I would be good.

Avon

Yes it is true...I am now selling Avon. It seems like it is going to be something that will be much easier to sell than what I was selling (trying to sell) in the past. I am still learning more on how to get my business started but in the meantime check out my direct website here. I am was totally surpised at all the cool things Avon is selling now and how inexpensive everything is. I LOVE the Mark line. Let me know if you have questions...Happy Shopping.

Growing Up

Today Tegan woke up noticing that he had a slight accident in his Pull-ups. He told me and I told him that I would change them in a little while. Well a little while later I went in to change them and they had already been changed. How in the world did my 3 year old change his own sheets? I have no clue. I have a hard enough time changing them myself. I just can't believe how fast he is growing and learning. This past week he started talking in sentences even more. YAY! He is not much of a talker and this has been a great accomplishment. He is also starting to remember names. I love hearing him talk about his friends and family by name. Today is my last day at work. It is a bittersweet moment. I am so excited that I get to be home with Tegan and actually get to sleep. Even being able to see my husband will be a great thing. We have slowly been getting used to having him around more and I and Tegan are loving it! It sure has taken some getting used to since we were so used to him being gone but this change has been a long time and coming. David hasn't had 2 days off in a week in a few years. I sure will the people that I have worked with. I have come to love them. I will also miss the extra income. We don't necessarily need it with David's new position but we were hoping to have our car paid off before I quit. But that is ok it will just take a few extra months. I am so excited for Spring and Summer and to be able to have a life. And exercise! I am so excited to get my butt back in gear! So here is to cherishing the little moments with our children.

To Sell or Not Sell

Today I had the urge to sell all of the baby stuff. At least the big stuff. We are paying for a storage unit to store it all and it is bugging me. But I am sure that when if I did sell it then I would get prego and then we would have to buy everything all over again. I hate that decision. I have also been thinking I should cancel my Aflac insurance. The whole reason why I got it was to be able to use it while prego. Well after paying it for a year and there is still no progress (absolutely none) I feel like we are paying for nothing. But I am sure that If I did cancel it I would get prego very soon after. Too many decisions. I don't like them.

On another note now that I have a computer (I was without for a few days) I am going to try to catch up on past few months of what has been happening around here. Nothing really has happened so it shouldn't take too long.

We are enjoying and trying to adjust to David's new schedule. In some ways it is much easier and others it is harder. It is hard having to find someone to watch Tegan for an extra hour since David gets off work a hour later. But we have enjoyed having him home more. He has also been helping around the house more which I LOVE! With me working and getting little to no sleep it surely helps. My house is the cleanest that it has been in a while.

I was told that I don't comment on blogs (or a certain blog). So I figured that maybe some feel the same way. If you all think that I do not read your blogs, I do. I just don't spend much time on the computer and don't have time to comment. If I commented on everyone's I would be on the computer for hours. Really though I just forget sometimes. If I really don't have anything to say I don't say anything. That's just me.

I hope that everyone is doing well and enjoying the nicer weather, Spring is just around the corner!

Infertility Support

While watching the news tonight I heard that there is such a thing as Infertility Support Groups. I always thought that there should always be such a thing and there is. The only problem is that the only one near by is in SLC. I am now on the search to find one in Utah County...if there is one. If I had the time I totally would start one. I really do think that women should be open about their struggles. We can only help each other if we know what you are going through. That is why I have never held back. Some might find it annoying but most of the time those people have no clue what it feels like. So I have found something for all of those people. And everyone. I think everyone should read this. I even learned some things. Here is a list of

Infertility Etiquette.

I appreciate everyones thoughts, prayers, and kind words. I LOVE you all!

Pondering

I found myself pondering today.

I came to the realization that I have never had a best friend.

I have never had that one person I could call when I needed someone to talk to. I have never had a friend that even after not talking for weeks you talk like you talked yesterday.

Like you never missed a beat.

Kinda sad.

It is definitely not my fault though.

I think of myself as a kind person and a great listener.

I always invite fellow women and moms to do things with me.

On a very rare occasion has that been reciprocated.

Very sad.

Am I just not a friend magnet?

I have friends, many actually.

But not really anyone that would do anything for me.

Maybe I am just too kind.

Maybe I would bend over backwards for anyone.

Do people not like that?

Don't get me wrong my husband is my best friend.

I can tell him anything.

But sometimes I just want some girl talk.

A girl's night out that I enjoy.

Not a night that I feel like I have to be...not myself.

My mom tells me that it comes with age. That she didn't have a true best friend until she was older. But I have seen that many people have best friends.

Is it my lifestyle?

Am I just too poor?

Or too busy?

Am I too cheap?

Do those things matter?

Sometimes I feel like they do.

The minute I think that I can count on someone everything changes.

They stab me in the back.

It turns into a one way friendship like I am the only one that cares.

Kinda weird that my husband feels the same way.

We have never had couple's friends.

We don't have parties with the same people.

Heck we never even get invited to stuff.

We invite but once again it is not reciprocated.

Sometimes I really do wonder if we stink,

if we are strange,

or not funny.

I guess I just need to keep being me.

Maybe that perfect friend will come along.

My Best Friend.

Mr. Tegster and What's New

Tegan had his 3 year check up today. I can't believe how much he has grown in the last year. He is 39 inches tall which is in the 75%. He has always been in the 90% so he has slowed down a bit. But his weight was 31.8lbs which was in the 50%. What? This kid has never made it above 30% in weight. He is not a big eater so I was really surprised at this.
He is developmentally ahead on everything except talking. He should know 1000 words and a stranger should be able to understand 2/3 of what he is saying. I can't even understand that much. This has been really hard and causes lots of tantrums. He is very smart knows all of his colors and almost all his letters. He just doesn't want to take the time to talk or talk correctly. He told me that I should call the school district to see if they could evaluate him and see if he will need Speech Therapy. Oh how I hope that he can cause it is starting to get really frustrating.
The doc also noticed a little fluid in his ears. Nothing to be concerned about he just has a little cold. He then told me that he is very lucky that he has never had a ear infection. Over 90% of kids have at least 1 ear infection before the age of 3. Oh I am so happy about that!
I can't believe how big he is. I wish he would slow down a bit. I enjoy every minute with him. It might just be him for awhile so we get to spend a lot of time together which I love!

As some of you know David had an interview at work for a new position. We have been praying that he would get the job. And the day of his interview he was offered the position. We prayed trying to know what to do since the schedule is not ideal. He will be working 6am-6pm Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and every other Wednesday. Working Sundays is going to be really hard but he is hoping to be able to work something out so that he can go to church once a month. If another lead position (which is what he has) opens up with a better schedule he will have a better chance of getting it. So we are hoping that one will open up soon so he won't have to work Sundays forever. With this new position he will get paid $2 more. Oh how I love this news! We have decided that I will work until we pay off our car. Working has just gotten really hard. I hate not being home to make dinner. And it has caused a lot of stress just trying to arrange our schedules so that we have someone to watch Teg. I also think that it is the cause of me being so sick this winter. I have had to work many times while sick. No fun! Let's just hope that I don't get anything again. I am not a fan of bronchitis, I have had it 4 times this winter. Blah! I just hope that we can pay the car off sooner than later. Than I can put all my focus on Teg and trying to get prego. Working late hours has really put a tole on me and it doesn't help while trying to conceive.

Whoa....What a relief!

Haha not really.

I guess the relief would be that I don't feel guilty taking cold medicine and Advil.

But it really isn't relief.

Some women would feel relieved to not have a period for 2 months.

I just feel anxious.

2 months?!

Really?!

I took yet another HCG Quantitative test yesterday.

Which some may know it as a blood pregnancy test.

And for what it seems like the millionth time it was

NEGATIVE.

I am not surprised.

Really I am not.

It still hurts though.

I just wish my brain, mind and my body would join together

work together.

But yet again I am disappointed.

Somehow

Like I always do

I will pick myself up

And continue to go crazy

scheduling

Scheduling

I hate Scheduling!

On a different note

I am sick

very sick

I feel like I have the flu

but it is not the flu.

David is the same.

I am starving

but not starving enough to make myself

something to eat.

I want some cookies

but too sick to make them.

Like I have said on many occasions...

Story of my LIFE!

Who is turning 3?….

Tegan is turning 3.

I can’t believe it either. It seems like just yesterday that I was holding him as a little newborn in my arms. Kinda makes me sad.

But I have loved every minute I have had and will have with this boy. He is my little comedian. His smile and laugh is contagious. He is one smart kid even though he doesn’t talk much.

We have a fun day planned….

Build A Bear

Toys R’ Us

McDonald’s

and a fun night with our close friends eating pizza cake and ice cream.

And then Tegan will get to be spoiled while opening his gifts.

Then

Now

 

Happy Birthday my Lovey Bug!